Since the weather was not updated, not for lack of things to tell, but wanted to tell, I am a soda, I know, but lately I'm tired (and no internet at home), making it difficult to spend half an hour to count your problems and thoughts in a blog.
What is my life? As more of the same, ladies and gentlemen . I am not having the brightest years of my life, all I know, I'm beginning to touch the depression (which terrifies me because my family has a history of clinical depression) and last but not least, as the day approaches 18, every time I get more bad feeling.
I have to operate, and begin to be increasingly concerned not by the operation itself, but by the consequences. Thatyes, it's a stupid action, that nothing will happen to me, that will not become cancer. Surely, if I find an interested, I'll have more children, but ... I deluded saying and thinking that I do not, that I have to Triki, if I can not have children I do not care, but ... is a lie. Of course I care. It makes me angry, sad, and I feel helpless. My body has betrayed me, me playing the ultimate bitch. One of the reasons for Rafa to me was that they wanted more children. Ironically, her bf loves kids, so you have half a dozen while I, that I wanted, I can not have more.
And I am again depressed, and I feel bad mother because I'm depressed, and I want to do things, and discoveredTriki gone a little, not street or under the water trying to get my attention. And it depresses me to be a bad mother, so I close the circle, and I get depressed ... etc etc etc.
And this weekend I will Asturias, home of a friend I met this summer in Leon. It is nice guy, I like him, we talk about many things, but sorry, no appeal to me physically (I say before you join the club that I rolled up to try it.) V C is friends with my friend Leon, who organized a little path by Portugal.
But on the way C and V are overreacting (and my sister with C, but I will tell you the other day were a holiday full of bad feeling, if I think about it), and because they are too similar in many respects, as in inability to close a c
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