I am not a spiteful person. I have my moments of hatred and passion, and I need my drama queen time to vent and scream to the world, but ... I do not usually keep the bitterness or resentment long time. Maybe because I have many things on his mind, or because I think life is too short to dedicate it to something as sterile as hatred. That does not mean you forget, or forgive, but rather that ... let go.
They say time heals everything, but what we tend to forget that it also blurs the past, which is the most dangerous. When you look back, you usually only remember the good and bad is half hidden, or blurred. You must make an effort to remember. It may be a mechanism to make it easier to pass p.ring. I pull, I have my job, my daughter, my life. Good friends that fill my free time, some that I can call when I need it and tell my neuroses and my problems.
But with everything and with that, I feel ... incomplete. Empty. Not so much because D is no longer in my life, but because I lack that complicity, that love only gives the couple. I miss him, but also the idea I have, or I have left of him. Or just miss having someone to love me. Being able to talk to someone about how I was your day, ask for his, agreed that consideration had to be worry because I'm sick. Today a friend told me that I do not miss a D, but the friend who was to me. Probably.
But lor it hurts, the thorn that is stuck in my heart, is that friend who wanted and which is trusted with what I consider the worst person I've met in my life. And it is impossible to know how it is. I think it does not hurt (much) to leave me for another, but is that it is a bad person, either because of sheer selfishness or evil has done and is doing much damage.
And I can not shake of the head the saying, "Tell me who your friends are and I'll tell how you are." So much was wrong with him?
Monday, March 16, 2009
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ame time, between seven and seven thirty in the afternoon, and the feeling of anguish takes me a couple of hours. It is not something that prevents me from making my life, in fact in this period is when you go to bed bath and Triki, but with a tightness in the chest.
There is nothing obvious that trigger, suddenly I get a very strong feeling of being overwhelmed and I have to stand up to steal some air and I can go. One possible reason is that everything bad that has happened, all the accumulated stress had to go somewhere and this has been chosen. The other option, less flattering, is that my separation has triggered a series of panic attacks or anxiety that may be temporary or permanent.
The obvious solution would be to go to medical
There is nothing obvious that trigger, suddenly I get a very strong feeling of being overwhelmed and I have to stand up to steal some air and I can go. One possible reason is that everything bad that has happened, all the accumulated stress had to go somewhere and this has been chosen. The other option, less flattering, is that my separation has triggered a series of panic attacks or anxiety that may be temporary or permanent.
The obvious solution would be to go to medical
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